((((WePow)))))

A lot of hard, emotional stuff comes up in session, but a lot of times I am just lost in the pain of it - there isn't much "processing" going on.

T and I worked something out a LONG time ago where I call him after every session and tell him what I "need" (or sometimes what I'm spiraling out about), and he calls and leaves me a voice mail to hang onto between sessions. A LOT of processing gets done in those phone messages. I'm usually driving home, and something about being alone in the car, driving, talking to T's voice mail seems to tap into a different part of my brain. I think I have most of my "a-ha" moments during car rides talking to T's voice mail. Then he calls and leaves me all of his thoughts about whatever I left on his voice mail. It's funny - the calls used to be mostly about reassurance, but they've kind of turned into a little mini therapy session after therapy.

It does seem like the longer I'm in therapy, the more processing I'm able to do IN session - earlier in therapy, I had ALL of my feelings at home and it was 100% "reporting" when I went to see T. It took a long time for me - ALL of me - to feel safe enough to really open up with T IN therapy.