I just realized that I think people on PB care about me. There is a thread for me there, wishing me well. It comforts me.

Maybe they won't forget about me. Maybe I won't disappear if I don't post.

I think maybe Dr. Bob won't call the cops on me. I think maybe he will ignore everything that is no admin related. I think that it won't be a big deal as long as I stop e-mailing him. I think maybe he is forgiving. I think he forgave Lou so maybe he will forgive me. I think maybe he doesn't wish me harm and probably agrees with most other normal human beings that I need some help or something.

I think that as long as I can remain normal for a long time he and others will be ok with meeting me. I will try very hard to remain sane.