Hangingon,

It took me a long time to find a safe place. One thing sort of worked, was a painting in my T's office. I knew it was safe because it was in my T's office and my mom couldn't find me there in a "fake place painting"

But now with my current T, I found a moment through my creative writing that felt safe to me as a child (a forgotten moment) I thought I never felt safe, but in fact I did with my dad at one point. It was when we were fishing, just us. So now my T uses this, in fact today even.

If you do any trauma work, please make sure you have a safe place and test in out many times before you get into something too intense.