I'm to the point where I am just ready to give up! I'm so tired of putting on this fake smile and acting like everything is ok when it's not. How much longer can this go on. when will it get better. I just feel like no one around me cares about me so why not just end it all. It's getting to where I want to cut more and more. I know I need to get in and see a doctor and T but I'm scared to talk about this to anyone. I know if my husband finds out he will leave me and tell me how stupid I am for doing this to myself. And I did ask the lady I saw last week if me & him were to get a divorce he could suppena my records. And that just scared me even more into not talking about it. But that's the only thing he would have on me and my suicidal thoughts. I just want to cut more!