I am curious if those that are married, have kids or who doesn't live a pretty isolated life feel that emptiness?

I ask because I am married. He's wonderful to me. I have a teenaged son who, well, he's a teenager. Even in a house full of people I will feel empty or alone. I am pretty isolated. (Don't have friends, work alone so no "work friends either" and no hobbies really) I just wonder at times if these feelings I have will ever change.

At times I almost feel like I am paying my T to be my "friend". Someone who will just sit and chat with me. I look forward to that part. Until we start working on 'issues' during the session. Seriously, I don't chat with anyone on the phone. I don't have that girlfriend to just call up and talk about nothing. It sucks. I never imagined myself in this place. I hate it.

How can I feel more enthusiastic about life in general? And how do you bring people into your life, become friends when it's so hard to be upbeat. To actually be interesting or enjoyable to be around???