just feeling extremely lonely and islocated. and add some paranoia of thinking everyone hates me and are laughing at me. and that's how i feel. i don't have any friends. no one i could just sit and talk with. something i've never had and more then likely will never have. i believe no one likes me and are just being nice to me because it's some unwriten law to be nice to the freaks. i really don't care about getting better at this point. because i've lost any hope that it will get better. this is what it is. i'm miserable, lonely and unhappy. i have no one to turn to and feel there is no help to be found.