I am sorry you are caught in this place. It is so hard for people to understand the complexities of disassociation. Those of us with mental deviations are often times held to expectations that are foreign to us. The "normalcy" others take for granted make it very hard for them to understand those of us who operate differently. I wish I had an answer to helping other understand those of us who are different. But I do understand being caught in a place where others expect more from us then we can give. For me the best way to handle it was to just walk away and take care of myself. It was my way of saying I can't explain it, you don't understand and I can't, in my limitations, fight with you about it anymore. When I tried to argue my point all I ever heard was "You are making excuses and just lazy, or selfish or weak." My arguing back made it look like I was stronger and more aware then I really was so I just learned to walk away from when people pushed me too hard. Please don't take that as I gave up on relationships, but I stepped away from the argument or conversation when it came to an impasse. Often times it was with my parents or my life partner and I have them all in my life now so I didn't cut them out of my life I just learned to pick my fights and take care of me first. I wish you peace and balance.