Angie, I do the same thing, I put on a fake smile for 4.7 years and it's worked to fake everyone. But I do know that eventually it will have to come out, and you just have to work to control it, so that it's your T that finds out, and not the rest of your world. Starting here is a good place, and then your T. and if you can and if your husband is strong enough, then maybe him. It is hard to tell those who love us. I'm not even there yet.

I just want to encourage you to put on that fake smile some more, and only reveal your problems to the professionals. It's a start at least, I know it's hard, but you can get through it!