Allow me to elaborate a bit. I have got past the fear of posting.

The double whammy that is knocking my wife out is that my addiction has included a couple of homosexual episodes and that despite her imploring me to tell her everything many times, I have only had the courage to let parts of it out a piece at a time.

I had a medical condition that supressed my libido for six years, so most of the problems occur in a fairly distant past, which has helped, but it has returned now and is causing havoc.

However, and finally, on the strength of the literature I have found here and with the sense that, at last, I may have something that approximates an explanation, I let her know that within the last few months I was in a situation in which I encouraged another enactment to take place with one of the men I had previously had sex with, which actually, fortunately came to nothing. My wife's screaming despair of me shook the house, when I told her.

I am very, very worried that her pain will prevent her from thinking of me as sick in anyway.

AGoodMan