Bashfull- I didn't find it and I bawled and a little sort of partly possibly came out with my mom throwing a temper tantrum. It was weird cause I knew I wasn't myself but I couldn't stop it. I'm so upset because I ended up spending $40 at Borders. I could've spent only $20 if I had my gift card. I bought two books. One is The Art Therapy Sourcebook and the other is a CBT Workbook for Dummies. I hope between the two I'll unlock my creativity again AND get my life back in order.

Turquoise- Thank you so much for the suggestion. Tomorrow I'll award myself for getting up early by after my shower I'll make some pet rocks to sell in the local gift shop!

Lost- please keep in touch and let me know how the meds work for you. I bought some St. John's wort and am going to try taking it twice a day (instead of three times like the bottle says) to see how it works for me. It's cheaper than Sam-e but dunno if that means it's not as affective.

I live in a rural area but there's a T that comes to town once a month I just found out about so I'm going to call him in the morning and ask about what kind of fee it'll be to see him.