I've had tears running down my face nonstop all day today. I have to pull myself together in the next 24 hours, and I JUST CAN'T DO IT.

I have to outline myself as a parent to the GAL tomorrow and I have no clue what to say. My ex has stomped on every thing about me the last few days. He's ridiculed my health knowledge, my abilities as a mother, my abilities as a human, everything.

My daughter isn't feeling so great right now. She felt warm and asked me to take her temp. i was praying it was normal so I didn't have to call the ex, because he wants to be informed of ALL medical news regarding the kids since he doesn't think I'm capable of handling anything as small as a headahce or sniffles or an upset tummy, and he insists to be kept in the "medical loop" at all times. I get ill and panicky at the thought of needing to contact him.

I can't take this constant doubting of myself because of his misperceptions. I divorced him to get away from that, not to increase it.