Mildred,

While I do think that this is something you should talk to someone about, I understand why you would do what you did. My reasons for SI have included because I wanted to feel something just to feel real, and also to have control. And you aren't the first person I've heard say that Prozac makes them feel not real either. One thing that someone I know told me about it was, "Things still bother you - you just don't care." Does that sound familiar to you?

No, I don't think that you are mad. If you are, then I am too, and my T has told me that I'm not crazy. But do talk to someone about it. Maybe it would help to adjust your medication, or maybe it's just the transition, but if you can stop hurting yourself before it becomes too much of a habit, you'll be better off.

Wendy

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