Yes I know you are all right, maybe it is time to move on to pastures new and get some respect back in my life, I do love my partner and same sex marriage is the norm in holland but something holds me back. There are the financial implications where all I have would be his and thus go down the drain and my brothers would be dead against it for this reason and I respect them. But I cant take the personal insults anymore, they make out I act above them but really it is inverted snobbery. I wouldnt dream of thinking myself better than anyone else and then there is the talking behind my back which my partner does join in on occassion which hurts the most.

I am very sad today as I realise loves perfect dream is not all it appears to be.