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I Had stitches last night and before i was crying and rocking backwards and forwards on my dads bed just staring into space i looked like i had lost it..
Then i dont even remember all of cutting my arm but after i felt a sudden rush of happiness and like all my pain had gone away ??
When i was in hospital after having stitches i felt like i could do anything like because i had the stitches i was invinsibible...!!
When i go clothes shopping and get lots of new clothes i get the same Happy feeling from deep self harm..it has to be deep or the feeling does not come.
What could this be?
<3 <3
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