((((BNLsMOM)))) I know how you feel. Truth is everything...for me. The only time I've ever told DH a flat out lie was when I scratched my wrist. At the time, in the moment, all I could do was dig and cry. It left a nice wide gash right across the veins. I hid it for a few days and when it started to heal and he saw it I told him it was a burn. It's the only time that I've self injured, physically on purpose. To this day it's the only thing I've ever lied about (that I didn't come forward on and tell the truth) and something that I will never forget. I'll never forget the desire to hurt myself either. That was alien.. yet comforting at the same time. If I ever go back into the blackness...I'll tell.

I hid my drinking from him in the past. Was good at it for a while. But the guilt was eating me up and I had to tell the truth. Then I started Geodon and the desire to drink left me. Well... I've cut my dosage back on the Geodon from 120mg to 40mg and now the wanting of alcohol is returning. I haven't lied about it yet...yet. But he does know what I've been up to and so far is keeping watch over me. As I'm trying to.

If you come clean with him let him know it was a one time thing (I hope) and steps are being taken with your t to handle it. Let him know you are safe.