My sister called yesterday and I made the mistake of picking up the phone. I don't want anything to do with her anymore. She treated me so poorly when I was a child, taking every opportunity to hurt me. Then when last year I decided to put the past behind me and try to develop a relationship because she "has grown so much" according to my mom, she stabbed me in the back. I know I should write her a letter and tell her to piss off but every one that I write I don't send for one reason or another. Argh. I don't want to hurt her I just don't want her in my life at all.
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Self-hate uses SELF-IMPROVEMENT as SELF-MAINTENANCE. As long as you are concerned about improving yourself, you'll always have a self to improve. And you will always suffer.--Cheri Huber in There is Nothing Wrong with You, Going Beyond Self-Hate