So sorry life is getting you so down. It is tough enough without the depression taking its toll too. I am glad it helped to spit it all out and I hope things get better soon. Hopefully your husband will figure out his escape just added to the pressure you are both under these days and he doesn't do it again.

Hope you are able to get some sleep. I know how the lack of sleep can really magnify worry. Take good care of you and give those kids a big hug. Let the love you share fill you with hope and promise of better tomorrows. Let the love sooth your worried soul. Take good care.