angie your like me. It takes a large amount of work to pull off a fake on the world. But we must be good at it, for it works part of the time.

As for the bad childhood thing. I to think that having so much go wrong with your body could have contributate to the problems to day. Or it could have just made you stronger to deal with all that you are going through. Just try and keep your head up, and your body safe. (Key word is try)