you can read more about it in my other thread here but basically I haven't slept since Sun night/Mon morning and I have been calling ALLL my mental health care providers and gotten nowhere. Nobody will even return my calls. It's ridculous.

I'm just done. If I can wean myself off my 2 antidepressants then I won't have to deal with the med dept at all anymore and the issue between me and my pnp will go away.

As for my T? I don't know. The other people ignoring me makes me mad , T ignoring me hurts. I think I just really need to step back and take some inventory of my emotional life and figure out who is helping me and who is causing me more emotional suffering.

So my plan is to start weaning off one of the meds, and then when I'm off it completely I'll do the same with the 2nd one.

I'm not going to group on Sat and I don't know if I'll go to my regular session with T on Mon or not. I just need to have people around me that I can count on and I will always doubt, with T, if she's just busy or distracted or whether it's something like "this is a DBT protocol" or even deeper like "she doesn't like me" (mother issues)

All I know is everyone, EVERYONE who is supposed to help me has let me down this week and I have to get to a point where I'm standing on my own so this doesn't happen again.