I empathize with you--just remember at some point your mood will swing again. I hope you are on medications and are seeking professional help. The biggest problem with bipolar is that when we feel better and get manic, we don't want that feeling to go away, and medication compliance can be a problem. I'm glad you are here. I am sending you prayers to lift you up right now, just not too far. You can find peace within yourself--try meditation daily. It slows down the racing thoughts and may decrease your anxiety. If you are truly paranoid and agoraphobic, you need to let your Doc know right away--you may need a medication adjustment. Take care of yourself cause you are the only person that can. I am praying you will find a break in your cycle and some spiritual peace. Steck