Just found this site today and the stories of the pain, of which I'm dealing with also, makes my wonder why this is happening to any of us. What could any of us done in life that would justify how some of us feel? It's not fair. And at least for me sometimes, my feelings lead me into bad choices, even though I'm doing the best I can. I've lost love, money, etc all because of a screwed up life that started in childhood and continues today. The decades that have been wasted simply trying to emotionally trying to keep my head above water. And yet I know that many have it worse than I do, yet they survive. That's amazing strength as many days there isn't a ounce of willpower left over for me. I hope all of us find peace and happiness in time.