I came to a realization tonight about 5 minutes ago coming back from my BF's parent's house. I was talking to him in the car about job anxieties etc... and I then realized why I am having problems accomplishing 2 main goals..... I look back to when I was about 15 years old to when all the panic started with school. My dad would get really mad for me not going etc... (no one knew that I had anxiety yet) they couldn't figure me out. My dad would (at one time) physically try to pull me off of the bed, while I was hanging on for dear life to the mattress trying to get me to school. He was worse with me in terms of that and yelling, my mom too but I was more scared of my dad.

Is that the reason why the important things are that tough, I think that someone (my bf perhaps) will become that angry?



Does that make sense?