Zoo. I am sorry that you did not get any responses back from your support team. I agree the harm you are planning for yourself sounds like you are turning your frustration in on yourself. I would stay on my meds and go to my appointment on Monday and talk to my therapist and tell T When you call, it means you need help...you are not calling to tell her that your goldfish died. Let her know you are serious and expect her to have the same level of commitment to your healing that you do. Anything less is totally unacceptacle.