yeah posting is helping. feel like if i keep posting i can stay in reality. feel like if i keep posting and talking i'll stay in the present. close my eyes and i'm out of reality and somewhere i don't want to be.

my eyes are so so. i can get on the computer and read or post for short periods before my eyes go. hard to focus without seeing double. so that also kind of cuts out my crafts. to hard to see. not much on TV. been doing the laundry and ironing. trying to pack for the trip. leave like at 6am wed. so i don't want to be rushed doing packing. played with my baby kitties. trying to stay out of h's way today. he's had to fix the drain in the tub. had water going everywhere. going to get up and make some cookies. had trouble keeping food down the last couple of days. so maybe snack on something good.

thanks for the virtual coaster ride. being on a coaster is about the only thing that makes me feel like i'm real. about one of the few things that makes me happy.