Envision,

I have to agree with Dividebyzero...

In saying that, however, you can let the depression continue to allow you to think along those lines, or you can come to grips with your condition and decide to accept that you are who you are inside and out. You can view it as an enemy or a friend...it's up to you.

Imagine if you had cancer. How would your line of thinking help you rid the cancer from your body? I could only see one option...seek medical help.

I wish you the best and hope you feel much better very soon! Be encouraged that we care about you and hope you will continue to post often.