I have been in those shoes....except I worked. I have found that working and working towards something....like leaving put a smile on my face and took away some of the anxiety. he has killed your self esteem and he is the problem that I can see hon. it sure sounds like he has done what he wanted. to make you feel trapped. maybe try to look at it that if you work you can leave. I felt sooooooo much better when I got out of it. much luck to you hon!