Last night I finally told my H that I have been having SU thoughts after a year of being ok. I have been having this thoughts for several weeks and didn't want to tell him because he would worry too much. Last night I decided it was time to tell him because this is getting out of control

He took it better than I thought he would and he's being very supportive. He helped me find out what could the reasons be for this problem and we planned a course of action. Also a good thing is that tomorrow I'll see my pdoc and will ask her what to do about the thoughts.

Thanks for reading this... just wanted to say that sometimes we have to do things we don't want to because it is for our own good.... still I feel like ***** today