zoo, how are you feeling today?

As far as your T not returning your phone call, I don't understand that. If you are in DBT, they are supposed to be available for coach and counseling on the phone 24/7. Now I know with my T, as good as she is with returning phone calls, she has on occasion not called back. The reason is that she didn't get the message for some reason. She also says to call her secretary and have her paged if it is urgent and i need her in the moment. even then, i should expect up to an hour or two wait in case she is in session or in group. I know how hard it is when no one is there (that has been a huge issue in my life that caused my issues in the first place) I would be angry and hurt too!!!

Having said that, I'm going to suggest something:

Go to group on Saturday
Go to T on Monday
Do not stop any of your meds
Do what is right for you in spite of not getting what you need
practice using DBT skills to the best of your ability
Talk about this with T is session, tell her how you feel
Don't give up! you are worth it!

Please don't allow others' mistakes to get you offtrack. You don't know the reasons why she didn't call. My one couselor never returned my phone call one time and it was three weeks later that she called and aske dme why she hasn't heard from me. I told her that I had called and left a message and she never returned my call. Well, she was horrified and aplogized profusely! She never ggot my message and said that there was another person too whose message went unheard so she was thinking that it was technical problem with the voicemail. She was truly sorry.

(((zoo))))