Hi james and welcome to PC.

First off I want to say that moving so far from your comfortable surroundings is probably what is triggering your anxious and isolation feelings. I think that is pretty normal considering the circumstances. I know that you say you dont want medication to make you act differently.

I wouldnt say that medication makes you act differently. I think it just helps ease the anxiety in so many ways. Medication may not be the answer for you. Have you tried speaking with a therapist? Sometimes, intense therapy and finding the root of your anxiety and facing it head on little by little can help a great deal.

Maybe you should start there. This place is a great place to vent and post about the way your feeling. Your not alone. I have panic disorder, OCD and depression. I have delt with many of the same feelings as you. Please hang in there and try to find a therapist that can help you through this.


Jmo