With everything going on with me, it just occurred to me that I have been a bit off lately.

I was a lot stressed about packing for my trip and even though I had a list, I couldn't collect my thoughts enough to pack without a lot of help. Then we watched The Informant. If you want a pretty decent account of a bipolar mind, at least the speed and disconnected way I think, watch this movie.

Then I thought about the fact that I have been thinking quickly, talking quickly and louder. I have been making connections and noticing a lot of synchronicity. I have been getting angry a lot and irritated over the littlest things because they mess up my high speed Amtrak of thought. I have been getting into arguments with my husband and snapping at my kids.

Here's the kicker... I have a bank account that I use for extras so that it doesn't come out of our joint account. Usually I will buy a Starbucks and a snack or two for the kids and spend maybe $10 in a week sometimes less. This week with the excuse of getting ready for my trip, I spent almost $400 on clothes for myself. Granted, I have put on a lot of weight with Lithium and needed some new things, but I shop at places that arent expensive and at sales, so knowing that, $400 is a little overboard. I am glad I didn't buy the bag I had picked out. Also, on two different days, the total was exactly the same. And for more synchronicity, I had to buy art supplies for my art class and the total for that came out to the same as well. Three different days, three different stores, the same total three times. Don't even get me started on the significance of the number three in the universe.

So anyway, I am going to bring my art supplies with me on my trip and try my best to chill. (and not think about how my amateur painting is as good as any professional and should hang in a gallery. It isn't but the thought crosses my mind when I paint something I like.)

I guess in a long and rambling way, I am saying that I think stress sets off episodes for me.

Do you all think I am hypomanic or more? Then again I might be mixed because of the SI stuff going on.

I'll be safe because I am visiting my family on vacation.