Hi, James..welcome..you'll have support here. the more you post, the more support you'll get.

i have a suggestion, when you are feeling anxious and afraid, call the local crisis line. there are people there that know exactly what you're feeling and it can be very, very helpful. also, can you see a counselor at school?

i think that a med would help with the anxiety. i'm really glad that you threw the pot away, as i believe it can make anxiety worse.

pat