Thanks to all of you who have been supportive. I'm feeling a lot better. I went to MHMR yesterday and they diagnosed me - Severe Depressive Disorder. They want to test me some more, as apparently I have Bipolar tendencies. They are helping me find a way to get my meds, but I may have to wait a bit. Still, I felt such a huge relief at just getting some help, just being heard and not being told not to be a crybaby helps tremendously. Now that I'm feeling stronger, I hope I can offer that same support to others on this site.