I so sorry that you're feeling so horrible. I wish I had a solution to your situation. I know how you feel - the crash after the high. It' so hard when you feel so normal and great, and the next thing you know your so down that all you can do is cry. This would be a good time to call your T or p-doc, if you have one - if not you might want to check into finding a T by talking with your family MD. Your family MD will be able to help you somewhat with a med, and might be able to help you find a T. Please know that many of us are thinking of you and hoping that you get to feeling better soon. Your children need YOU - and you need them. You can PM me anytime to talk, to vent, or chat. Bless you!