I am having home day today. My kids are here, everyone is playing with the new puppy, I am doing this or that and I really could relax and do nothing. I even took a short nap. But when I relax or just hang out with my kids I have this uncomfortable feeling. Like I am not "doing" something, I am not taking care of something, there is something else I can do, I am having difficulty just "being."

I sit, I enjoy them, but I feel almost uncomfortable in my skin. I have brought this up with ftt before and it is something I have felt for a long, long time. Its as if I dont know what to do with my brain during relaxing moments. In the past this would have been a binge time because I would have to sit with myself. I drank waaay too much decaf today. And all of the salad in my house. Im okay with that. But I feel restless and "bad" for doing nothing. Like I have to "hide" that I am doing nothing and I could get caught