sincity, I think there are some things you don't have to talk about in therapy, but I don't think this is one of them for you. The hardest topics are the most important ones for healing IMO. And after six years in therapy to stall out now, on this topic, because it is hard to talk about and painful, would be a shame. But I think you don't really intend to stall out.. I think you need time, and a little preparation, and a nudge in the direction of talking about these things.

You know how you wrote just a little bit here, that your mom didn't want you, and how you said that was hard to write? Can you keep trying to write things like that down, even though it's hard? I prepare to talk about hard stuff with my T by writing about it in my journal. I find it easier to write my thoughts out than talk about them, so writing helps me prepare for sessions.

Is there some other way you could break the hard stuff into digestible pieces? Talking about just a LITTLE bit, delving just a LITTLE into this painful stuff?

Another way that I ease into difficult topics with my T is I say, "So, I know what we need to talk about but it's really hard to bring up these topics." This is my way of bringing up the topic. And she helps me, at this point, warm up to talking about "it," whatever it is.

Hope this helps..