I struggle with this, too. It is so hard for me now that I live alone, there is never enough to do to keep the hours filled and yet I can't just BE. I have to be busy, busy, busy. I drive myself in circles just finding things to do in the apartment, because my anxiety keeps me from going out most of the time.

I know partly it's from being called "lazy" as a child, and mostly it's from being afraid of feeling if I let myself be still too long, and a little bit is probably AD/HD. It's no fun. Especially when I'm tired, physcially and mentally and deep down in my soul like I am now but I still can't just BE. At times like this even sleep is elusive.