I'm so tired of waking up it isnt funny...I have been in this black hole since Sept '08 going through my divorce...I have no job...I don't know who owns my home anymore since I have no money for the mortgage payments...my 14 yr old son only likes me half of the time especially since I can't buy him all the high tech expensive gadgets anymore...I take online surveys to keep the utilities on...I hate going outside, even to get the mail...I have no family here besides an alcoholic sister and mom's got Alzheimers, but before that we weren't close anyways...I have no one whom I can call my true friend, just acquaintances, last "friend" I had was a yr and a half ago and she said the guy I was interested in at that time tried to sleep with her...I hate the state I'm in, I was supposed to move but financial matters fell through...I'm supposed to be taking Lexapro but stopped cold turkey, I'm ready to stop seeing my therapist too because I don't feel I can really be a 100% honest about all my thoughts and feelings...on the flipside there are 3 positives that I have and that's I'm on the Dean's list at my college...I dream of having my own bakery after graduation...and there's a guy I like even though he's about 5 states away, I do envision us meeting face to face!! But all my negatives are so outweighing the positives to the point I'm really feeling that there is no light at the end of my tunnel......