When I'm depressed I don't spend a penny. I can carry a $20 around for months and never spend it. Then I'll have a good day and feel great and I spend the money and buy books on line that I don't even need... I always feel sick afterwards. I did buy a Sony Touch Reader and it was over $300 and knew I shouldn't do it - but I couldn't control myself. Knowing I shouldn't do it I bought it. Once it got here I felt too guilty for days to even open it. I almost dread when I have good days. But I did do good this week - I felt great all week and didn't spend anything. But I feel myself sliding back into depression - can't sleep, can't eat, and my mind keeps wandering and I can't consintrate on anything.
Why do we do this... why....