I'm currently in a relationship with a girl (I'm 17 and ses 16, I'm a junior she's a sophomore)l that I do really like but lately things just haven't been working out. I think I may have found the exact reason why...

This is actually my first real relationship and I think I got way to obsessed with what a relationship is like and I think because this is my first relationship, I feel like I want to see what other people are like. But at the same time I feel like I don't want to lose someone like this because she is just amazing to me. She's smart, she's nice, she's caring, she goes through my anxiety attacks with me for a good portion of the time were on the phone. I just don't understand what other girls would do this for me. Also he personality is awesome and she's loved by a lot of people.

But even though I feel this way for her, I feel like nothing is working mainly because I am way to curious what else is out there. My mom had suggested an open relationship but I honestly don't feel like doing that sort of, mainly because this girl has said how much she cares about me and I'm the best boyfriend she has ever had. So why would she want an open relationship.

last night I took a break and then about an hour later I called it off because I talked to a grandparent ad said it sounded like I am screwing with her head, it sounds like this because I tell her exactly how I'm feeling, I'm completely open to this girl and I've told her at times that I have been uncertain about our relationship and at tomes completely sure. So I called the break off and we came up with the conclusion to talk less and limit talking to just calling at night unless we have something we really want or need to talk about. There were other reasons as well, I told her that I feel like I'm doing all the work to see her all the time and just doing what she wants even though she does do things I want to do. I told her about being curious about other girls as well.

So would a open relationship be a good idea here? Would I be playing with her head even more? I'm scared to lose this girl but at the same time I can't enjoy it because I'm WAY to curious.