It does all get confusing, doesn't it! Only you will be able to sort this all out, but I would suggest you rely on the fact that when you are sober you are in complete control of your actions. So it is up to you what happens when you spend time with your friend.
It is for sure confusing and uncomfortable to identify as straight and yet find you have a crush on another girl. I for one have trouble sometimes distinguishing between what is emotional intimacy and what is sexuality, so I have often had to just refrain from expressing myself sexually in any way, in order to explore a friendship. Something I have learned to trust I can do. Perhaps it will help you to know that it is pretty normal for straight women to sometimes feel strongly about a female friend in this way, but not do anything about it.
I would advise caution with one thing you said:
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I know that she's bi (even if she doesn't say so openly); after having so many bi friends, you can just tell.
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Especially since you also say:
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A lot of my female friends are bi, and several of them have hit on me.
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Perhaps the girls who have hit on you are also thinking they can 'tell', but you don't agree with them, right?
Not sure if any of this will be helpful, but I have been there in my own way so I wanted to respond somehow...