sdcg76,

Welcome to PC. It sounds as if you are suffering from major depression and you may want to consider removing some things from your plate to make things clearer to you so that you can start to progress again.

First, I would talk to your lawyer and find out whether you can get your Ex to pay some of these bills so that you don't have this hanging over your head day in and day out.

As far as your child, I would sit him down and explain to him that you are having some emotional difficulties right now and you really need his support. It sounds like you and your sister weren't close, so you don't want that to happen to you and your child. You need him and he certainly needs you. I find that sometimes when I'm depressed that hanging around my two teenagers is helpful.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, but only with therapy and meds, unfortunately. You must know...YOU CANNOT DO THIS ALONE! You need to start building a network of people who care, even if it's online. And you really need to talk to your therapist. Finally, big mistake to stop Lexapro cold turkey! Lexapro must be weaned and it can cause an immediate relapse if quit like that...I know I tried it before. I'm on Lex also.

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing. PM anytime if you need someone to talk to. Please take care of yourself...