Tree, you are not alone! Remember your T is there for you even when he is not physically there. He is with you inside, so try to connect with that and carry him with you...he is there. Plus, we are all here for you too, remember that!

This is a good time to use good coping skills, because bad coping skills only make things worse in the long run. They may help in the short term, but you end up having to deal with more problems when using bad coping skills. When do you see T again? If you have to get through a few days, why not try to distract from the intense pain right now by doing something with your kids, something that will take your mind off the big stuff going on internally. I know it is important to feel your feelings but try not to let them overwhelm you. Take a break from them when you need to. Experience them as a wave that comes in and goes back out. Allow them to go back out like the tide. you are in the process of healing, but you don't have to deal with it all at once. Call your t if you need to.

(((((tree)))))