Well the self-isolating behavior began when I was 16, i'm now 21. It first occured when people began to reject hanging out with me...and then I felt like there was something wrong with me.

When I was younger, i wasnt allowed to hang out with other children because i was in a medically fragile state.

I've always felt disconnected from people. For a long time.

I have a facial deformity and I have no idea how to handle myself around others. At times I've felt like people have treated me as though I was inferior because I looked different. I've felt like a "freak" before, but I dont use that word anymore.

Basically I'm just totally confused as to how to go into the world socially. I don't think I'll ever be considered pretty. :/ and I'd say that it was my depression talking but with the facial deformity i just dont know.

It's hard to tell if its bad self-esteem or just reality because my face looks different. I remember reading this article about people who had to have their jaws removed because of oral cancer and how they'd withdraw from society, not wanting people to look at their face.

I dont know, i used to be popular in high school, and then by the time i hit 10th grade I began to feel isolated and disconnected from others.

I've been on a forum for loneliness for the past year and a half, so this is really a pervasive thing.

I'd like to have someone to call up and say "do you want to hang?"

I think i've just gotten used to it by now and I'm not really sure how to make the feelings of isolation go away.