tree, you know that nice feeling of peace and calm that comes after the most horrible of storms? that's what you have to look forward to. i wonder if you can keep your eye on the long term outcome and not let yourself fall so much into this (temporary) feeling. you made no mistake in opening up to T, you did something very positive. you're going to have a new October. but first the storm has to pass.

i usually drink hot chocolate and marshmallows when it gets to be terrible weather here. sometimes i have a bath, or i curl up with a book. make myself pumpkin soup. make sure i have enough candles and can find the matches if the lights go out.

what are your storm stategies? how can you do something differently, rather than going to poor coping mechanisms, or just feeling impotent with this feeling?