can i even call it romance yet? probably not. but ive got this thing for her. we went to rehab together and i really think shes cute. we've been talking and hung out recently. it went good, i bought her a moothie. i cant tell if she likes me yet, she definately seems to be somewhat interested. but maybe its just as a friend. she just broke up with her controlling boyfriend and shes only 60 days clean off heorin. but she continues to drink. i dont know what it is but ive just got this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach, kinf of nervous to her possible rejection. but shes not even right for me i just cant help liking her.

its been a while since ive had some semblance of romance in my life. it brings back old feelings of heartaache. my last love left me in highschool for an older guy with a car and my boistrus confidence was shattered. after that i was really guarded. i used drugs as a replacement girlfriend and my other relationshios since then have been few and far between, fickle at best.

im still at a stage of finding myself. but i miss having a girl in my life. probably best to maintain a healthy distance from this new girl; if i can help it. dont wanna be her rebound or get caught up in her lifes drama. cant stop thinking about her tho. dunno why im so attatched with so little to base those feelings on. maybe im projecting my own longing onto whoever fills that space at the moment. like i said, its been a while since i had romance in my life.

anyone had any experience with prolonged isolation and then "getting back in the game", so to speak? what about easily developing strong emotional attatchments to people fairly quickly?

one of my issues is that im a people pleaser. i thinl i put a little too much weight into how other people are feeling in correlation to my own mood or security. not the most stable arrangement, to say the least.