Hi, long time no see us... Things are incredibly intense. Our controller finally has opened up to our T and to God. It is disorienting to us. We feel kinda lost and insecure. Our communicating inside is still not very good - which is mostly the host's fault (ie. leslie). We don't have a good way to write what we want to say. almost 50 years of having a young part skipping lots of steps of growth and trying to keep order in here and keeping things looking 'normal'.

We cry almost every day now, which is good, but feels horrid. our spouse, pill is emotionally distant and ignores us. we want to bite him. aaarrgh. we found out one of our protectors is a small black cat who protected one of more tinys (baby alts).

All of this is to say we are sorry to be gone so much and we wish you all well and will be back if and when we can. We are OUT THERE SOMEWHERE but can't tell where it is... oi vey!

pixies in a pickle