I don't know if this will help, but I keep up the motivation to keep working on stuff because I know otherwise it will come and bite me again. My drive to work is the hope that I will be able to keep myself from going through the same thing again. That is what keeps me plugging along. When I get the break from the tough stuff, then I can reach into the darker stuff without the same fear that it is going to destroy my life while I am trying to deal with it.