It means a lot to get replies, and that you don't think I'm weird.
chaotic-interesting about adrenaline. It could be an adrenaline rush which would be more acceptable to me. I will have to look that up online because I don't know much about it. I always thought sex was sex!

Brightheart, you could be an IFS therapist! I'm sure my T will tell me to have compassion for the parts that feel like they do. I do know that it's more to do with a desire for connection and nurturing than for sex. But those needs manifest themselves in a physical way. I don't know how to write that. I want to say "it's not my fault." I know I have a lot of twisted thinking about this stuff. I don't want to think about it too much though because it's all yucky stuff to me. Child and baby stuff that doesn't want to get acknowledged, let alone discussed in therapy!

velcro-interesting. I do see how my mind doesn't know what to do with the feelings, so my body reacts the only way it knows how. Which makes me feel ashamed all over again, but less so since I seem to be surviving this thread without dying. I'm half joking, half serious.

Do you guys really think I should tell all of this to my T?