Oh no - not relaxing while wallowing - hiding from the world, being afraid of people.

What do I do? I obsess...I grab an issue from my head and play with it. I question myself. What if I did this or that? What if I told my step-mom how wrong her opinions of me are? What if I could make her hate my dad? What if dad is right? Maybe I'm just a selfish, spoiled little brat. I beat myself up. When I get too tired to poke at myself, I go read a book and attempt to escape to somewhere else. I cry. I think horrible thoughts. It may be weirdly comforting to wallow in it, but it sure isn't healthy.