My "friend" called me last night. During the conversation, I had asked her if she ever took the other quiz that she was going to take on Asperger's? She said that she did and again she scored high but in the normal range. I began telling her how I had read that oftentimes people with Asperger's are misdiagnosed as having NPD. She replied, "Oh good. That means I'm not a Narcissist." My point however was that alot of the traits are similar. I told her that typically people with Asperger's cannot turn on the charm like I've seen her do with customers and it's probably the same thing she's doing with all these new friends. She didn't deny it and just said, "yeah but I think it's a learned trait". My reply was that I don't know if people with Asperger's can learn that so well. Not to mention that she did it practically overnight. She then asked me if I thought it was an act? I told her that I don't know because I feel that I really don't know who she is anymore. She just said, "hmm". I asked if she even knew who she was and her reply was, "yeah, I think I have a pretty good idea". She then went on to say that she really doesn't care anymore. I told her that I don't think she ever really did care. She said, "No. I really just wanted to put a name to what I've got."

Her attitude at times is almost scary. I'm guessing she doesn't care what she's got because she has managed to adapt, has tons of friends, and it's working for her. I do fear though that she has lost sight of her true self. Where she used to show some concern for things, I just get the feeling that she has completely pushed aside any and all feelings and is living in a world of nothing but fun and games. Even when I ask about different things, the attitude is always the same......"what do I care", "he's a big boy", "I don't really care", "eh, whatever", "I'm young and stupid".

Whatever this is, she has gotten worse but in her eyes I think she thinks she's gotten better because she's finally having fun and has lots of friends. I just think it's scary. Where did my best friend go?